Every time I get behind on my anxiety medicine my body dysmorphia gets so bad. I’m sitting at school focused on how disgusting I must be to everyone here rather than on my midterm in front of me. I thought I was doing better and now I feel like I’m spiraling backwards. and everyone’s probably thinking then just take your medicine, idiot. but do I have to be medicated my whole life so I can pretend to be normal? I just want to be a person. A happy, confident person. why am I cursed with this awful disease?